[Lisah] For All The Years

Sometimes I know the words to say,
And thank you for all you've done.
But they seem to fly up and away,
As quickly as they come.

How could I possibly thank you enough?
The one who makes me whole.
To whom I owed my very life,
And the forming of my soul.

The person who tucked me in at night,
Who always stopped me crying.
The only one who was the expert,
At picking up if I was lying.

You always dropped me off to school,
Then spent sad days alone.
Yet magically you always produced a smile,
For the minute that I got home.

You had to make some sacrifices,
To always put me first.
You helped me test my broken wings,
In spite of how much it hurts.

Are there really any words for this?
I find this question tough...
Anything that I choose to say,
Just doesn't seem like its enough.

How ever can I thank you,
For your heart, your sweat, your tears?
For ten thousand little things you've done,
For god knows how many years?

For changing with me as I changed,
Turning a blind eye to all my flaws.
Not loving me because you had to,
But loving me 'just because'.

You never even gave up on me,
On days your wits had reached their end.
You were always oh-so proud of me,
You were always my best friend.
So in time I've come to realize,
The only way to say.
The only way I can thank you enough,
Is possible in just one way.

Look at me standing in front of you,
Look who I have become.
Do you see yourself in me?
The things that I have done?

All your hopes and all your dreams,
The bond that no one sees.
Transferred for over twenty years,
Your best was passed to me.

Thank you for the gifts you give,
And everything that you do.
But thank you mummy, most of all,
Because you helped my dreams come true.

-Sophia Haq

[Lisah] Closure

My heart is breaking,
What have you done?
Isn't falling in love,
Supposed to be fun?
There are a few things,
You will never know.
Like how you take my heart,
Wherever you go.
You're perfect to me,
In every way.
The feelings get stronger,
Day by day.
These things you don't know,
But I feel you should.
As I'd do anything for you,
If you said I could.
However I know,
That you never will.
So patiently I wait,
Sitting so still.
I am down,
I am blue.
I don't think,
I'll get over you.

- Sophia Haq

[Lisah] Silent Witness

Did you ever notice mum,
The tears roll down my face?
The day you took an overdose,
Puking all over the place.

Did you ever notice dad,
The lump that was in my throat?
The day I had to pack my things,
You handed me my coat.

Did you ever notice sis,
The way my hands would shake?
When you used to knock me around,
Convinced I wouldn't break.

I guess you guys just never saw,
The torture you put me through.
God forbid I ever become,
As selfish as any of you.

It's because of you I'll never die,
Because I'm already dead.
The torture inflicted by you lot,
Has affected me in the head.

But still you never noticed me,
And the things that I went through.
To close my eyes and cover my ears,
To get away from you.

Everyday something would break,
A table or a chair.
The knives, the fists and the blood,
You forgot I was standing there?

I was only a child how could you do it,
And destroy me the way you did.
How could you do it to anyone?
Least of all, your kid.

-Sophia Haq

[Lisah] Mirror Image

Look at my reflection,
     Tell me who you see?
     Do you see Sophia Haq,
     Or do you just see me?
     Do you see the pain inside,
     Through the twinkle in my smile?
     Do you see a stable adult,
     Or see the shattered child?
     Can you see the tears I've cried,
     Through the sparkle in my eyes.
     Those passionate kisses upon my lips,
     You spoke a thousand lies.
     Can you see a depressive adult,
     As the manager of a store?
     Can you see my heartache,
     When laughing with people I adore.
     Can you see straight through me,
     Or just see mirrored glass?
     My face is but a jigsaw,
     Of pieces from my past.
     Can you feel the fear I've felt,
     Through the love within my touch?
     Do you love me, or Sophia Haq?
     Tell me just how much.
     So take a good look at my reflection,
     And tell me who do you see?
     Do you see smiling Sophia Haq?
     Or now do you see me.

- Sophia Haq